celebrate-2014-11-21-at-2.45.34-PMAs a result of the Oklahoma game and after nearly sixty years, I have stopped watching or listening to University of Tennessee Football live. My nerves cannot take it. I now record the game while keeping up with the score on Twitter. That way I am not as emotionally involved and sleep better.

Another football change I have made in my life is my response to players who get a 15 yard penalty for celebratory behavior that the officials deem excessive.  Earlier this year after a celebration penalty I was particularly hacked off at the player’s lack of discipline. But as I continued to watch that game and think about the penalty, I thought of folks I’ve known who have missed much of what life has to offer them because of what I call “CDD”. Confidence Deficit Disorder is a malady that has paralyzed folks since the beginning of time. In stark contrast to adrenaline charged, showboating football players, people with CDD see themselves as lacking what it takes to measure up or as one down to everybody else.

The first case of CDD which I’m familiar was Moses of the Old Testament. God told him to lead the Israelites out of bondage and he immediately replied that he didn’t have what it takes. He asked God to find someone else.My mother didn’t learn to drive until she was in her fifties because she didn’t think she could do it.  Getting her to stop driving at age 87 was a different story. I dropped Speech 101 at UT several times because I didn’t think I could be successful as a speaker. I’ve known countless people who shortchanged themselves or nearly did because of a zillion imagined reasons.  I’ve come to realize that God can work through whatever we have and that each of us has more than enough. Perhaps showboating football players just express that realization in a different way.

Something to Think About

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